Starlight

A full moon

None of these could brighten the night.  As the night, always shrouded this earth in darkness; my earth could never see the light of the moon I so desperately wanted to cast my eyes upon. I walked a lonely path in the darkness; seldom did it cross my mind how my life had turned into a dark, miserable tunnel to which I found no opening. Instead, I looked at it as though I was walking to a wonderful paradise; that all this misfortunate turnover of abandoned feelings was simply a hurdle to jump over. A long jump, a jump that I feared would never end, and that at the end, I would crash and burn on the other side. I kept my head held high, my hopes up as I continued down this endless path, alone, yet courageous. I was afraid of nothing, nothing could hurt me, and nothing could bother me. While this dark world was painfully lonesome, it was also healing knowing that since I was alone, I could not be damaged.

I wasn’t alone; however, I was in more danger than I would be if I could find the happy ending I had been longing for. My loneliness was simply betrayal from my once safe world, and abandonment from the creatures I had once called my family. This darkness, was only protecting me from being hurt eotionally by loosing, once again, more family I would get attached to. I was afraid to find a new place to call home, and a new pack to call my family, for betrayal was my greatest fear. Failure, loss of my pride was what inflicted the most damage to my soul, and burrowed me deep into this tunnel I could find no ending to. How far had I been buried? Was it truly that difficult for me to move onward?

This darkness was located in the same forest I had seen light in so long ago. My pack left me here a long time ago; I was beaten, and then abandoned. Since then, the moon that once crept through the trees seemed to have been locked out, and the starlight I had stared at and gone to sleep to every night was shrouded in a dark cloud. My worry was to cross paths with them, and have that dark cloud seal my fate for eternity. Yet, my faith, courage, and strong will, led me to the end. I prevailed over darkness.

Walking, as I did every day, still searching for that light, watching for a crack to appear in this blackened forest, I found what I had been looking for. I was not alone this day, and I had felt it from the moment I had woken up. My ears erect, and nose held up to catch the wind, I smelt something peculiar. The same scent my pack carried, but with a different effect, as every pack had a different scent. I held my ground, preparing to face an angered pack that had figured me out, I was ready. If I did lose this battle, I would be released, right? I would no longer be trapped in this cold, dark world, I would be freed to what I had heard was a paradise like no other. Yet, at the same time, the instinct to survive drove me to hide behind a clutter of brush. I was still weak minded, a frightened coward like I had always been. The runt of the litter, I was destined to be scared, and shameful of my small build.

I watched eagerly as a single wolf stepped out into the clearing, they too looking frightened, lost. They must have smelt me, and had the same idea as me. I stepped out from my hiding place, and revealed myself in a more statured manner. Our eyes locked together, and I knew immediately, this wolf was of no threat. Instead, I had seen something in their bright yellow eyes that seemed to unlock something within me that made my tail swish, and a light switch turn on my world. I padded in their direction, and they stood there, allowing me to stop before they unthawed.  After the initial greetings, we both walked into the new bright world together. Two lone wolves, destined to take on the world, just the two of us. I knew we would never turn on each other, and I would never be abandoned as I had been in the past. This wolf, like I, would put his full trust in me, as I would in him. We would be each other’s protectors, and companions. There was no one else to turn to, or no other place to go, we were united as one, forever.

That night, for the first time in a long while, I lay down and could see the moon and stars looking down upon me through the leaves.